Fickle Finger of Fate

Seek the truest of all truths.

I’m sorry, for how I reacted last Friday. Sorry for being too emotional, and for crying too much.

I just want to say that I understand why you’re doing this. I believe that you know what’s best for you, and if this decision would help us improve ourselves, then let’s do this. I’m sorry for being selfish, sorry for not letting go of you.

Losing you is my biggest fear. After the phone call last Friday, I was so hurt that I just wanted to move on. I wanted to forget you, I wanted you out of my life. I was angry. Because it seemed like it was too easy for you to stay away from me. But I know that it’s not.

Loving you is like breathing to me.

When you left, there was not a single day that I hadn’t thought about you. I spoke your name everytime. I miss your voice, your text messages, our routine every week. I miss asking about your Sundays, about your parents, I miss our late night movies in laptop, the sound of your car when you visit, ice cream, your kisses, the way you smile, and the way you pull my body against yours.

I miss you.

I think, most of the essential things were left unsaid. And among those unspoken words, I wish that we shared the same dreams. I wish that we are still hoping for the same things.

I believed you when you said that you love me. And it just made me love you even more.

You claimed a special place in my heart, a place that will forever belong to you. You are a big part of what I am, and where I am today. I am and will always be grateful for the moments we’ve spent together, memories that I’ll always treasure.

Love, you are my home. I am your home, too. I’m just here. When you’re happy, please tell me about it. When you think that the world is not being fair, come to me and I’ll listen. If you message me, I probably won’t respond too. But like what you said, it doesn’t mean that I’m not at the other end of the line.

Please talk to me, even just in your dreams. So that you won’t forget me. So that you’ll remember that I love you, and I always will.

See you later in life, love.

Savannah Curtis: The problem with time, I’ve learned, whether it’s those first two weeks I got to spend with you, or the final two months I got to spend with him, eventually time always runs out.

I have no idea where you are out there in the world, John. But I understand that I lost the right to know these things long ago. No matter how many years go by, I know one thing to be as true as ever was - I’ll see you soon then.

the girl whispered to the stars the words that she can’t utter; and hoped that the boy she loves will be dreaming of her.

What if they were better people

What if she was different when they met

What if she missed his first call

What if he lost that stupid bet

What if she wrote him a love song

What if she hated his front tooth

What if she didn’t wait for too long

What if he always said the truth

What if she told him a lie

What if she didn’t pick a fight

What if we gave love another try

What if you were here tonight

‎”Would you like me to give you a formula for success? It’s quite simple, really. Double your rate of failure. You are thinking of failure as the enemy of success. But it isn’t at all. You can be discouraged by failure or you can learn from it, So go ahead and make mistakes. Make all you can. Because remember that’s where you will find success.” 
- Thomas J. Watson 

God must have known how tired my heart is,

so He gave me a very restful weekend.

Very unproductive, but it’s okay. 

There’s still tomorrow, diba? :)

Thank you, Lord. 

Good night :)

You just know when something has come to a definite end. It was a peaceful, sweet, and silent warfare, one that was fated to head unto a finale, a stinging battle between two soldiers who have faith in love - or, well, the complete lack thereof. A heart mutely cried, or maybe both did; the other will never find out. It feels good to have loved to a great extent. And if anyone would ask, yes, he’s probably gonna be my greatest love.

You just know when something has come to a definite end. It was a peaceful, sweet, and silent warfare, one that was fated to head unto a finale, a stinging battle between two soldiers who have faith in love - or, well, the complete lack thereof. A heart mutely cried, or maybe both did; the other will never find out.

It feels good to have loved to a great extent. And if anyone would ask, yes, he’s probably gonna be my greatest love.

To have loved him is a gift.

To have loved him is a gift.

Lesson #1: It takes a looooooong while to grow your hair back. Lesson #2: Lesson #1 is very true. Especially when you are emotionally unstable. HAHA

Lesson #1: It takes a looooooong while to grow your hair back.

Lesson #2: Lesson #1 is very true. Especially when you are emotionally unstable.

HAHA

“If you love someone, ask him for nothing. Don’t hold him from his destiny. Don’t keep him from going off in search of his own answers. Don’t ask him for commitment. You will know commitment is real when it is something given willingly, and not as something obligatory. Don’t ask him for promises. If you are patient, if you have faith, you will know in your heart when the right time for promises has come. And when that time arrives, then you will see that you have both lost nothing by setting each other free, and have instead gained a richer, fuller life, a wealth of experiences, and a stronger certainty of your desires.
But should he not return to you, then life hasn’t cheated you because no promises were broken. Your bitterness will not last long, and you will feel thankful and blessed that at the very least, this beautiful soul has colored your life, that knowing him has already made life infinitely more meaningful. By setting a person free, you run a risk of him not returning. But always remember that you found him beautiful precisely because he was free. People are like sunlight. You can feel their warmth, and their glow, but you can’t hold them in your hand and keep them with you forever.
People choose to stay. But a choice is made more meaningful when it is made despite so many other options.”
-Ala Paredes

Maybe, I just don’t make him happy anymore.

I love you Lucas, and I probably always will, but we go days without having a meaningful conversation. And I used to miss you so much when that happened but it never seemed like you missed me. And I guess because of it I stopped missing you.” -Brooke